TWO DAYS LEFT!

I'm getting more nervous as each day passes. Part of me feels in denial - as if I don't understand what a huge step this surgery means for my life. But, on the other, hand, I've been thinking about this for years, and actively pursuing it for two and half years. I guess it's hard to believe that it's finally going to happen.

I've also been working on visualizing myself thinner and healthier - to really solidify the mindset I'll need to make it a success. For the past two months, I've cut out caffeine (except for one or two cokes), downed protein shakes for breakfast and lunch, and worked at exercising more. I know that exercise is what's going to make this a success and, luckily for me, I already belong to Planet Fitness. Not only are they just a mile from my house, but they're open 24 hours during the week. I have no excuses and I know, even directly after surgery, I can at least use the treadmill.

I can see myself walking more and more each day, feeling the difference as the weight drops off and my muscles firm up. I also plan to document my progress - with pictures and with this blog - so I can see how far I've come.

I also find myself looking at clothes, in shops and in catalogs, that I never imagined I would ever be able to wear. I look at them now with a new eye, trying to imagine what I would pick when I'm thinner and can fit into them. And I know that soon - with persistence and patience - it will happen.